I like fairies, they didn't have it, so I was forced into this. oh well.

I give up is what I want to say but I know I can't give up because if I give up than I am going to have to go back to my mother and I don't want that.  I worked so hard to make it this far but I feel like I am going to crack for good.

I ended up in tears last nite because of so much stress and than today I got a test and a essay back at 9:45am and was in tears till 10:15 till I had class again for writing skills.  The reason why I cried though is because I got a C+ as my grade for the second time on my second reflection and than a C+ for the second time on a quiz for that class.  The only thing that I got a higher grade for in that class is when I got an A on my notebook on monday.  Now I have to go to tutoring for that class and than I am "Suppose" to go to tutoring for science.  I than got my essay back form last week and I got a B- on it. 

I can live with the B- but the C+ and all the grades in the C range and below I can not handle.  I use to be an A student and now I am struggling really bad.  What makes it worse is that at times I feel that maybe my mom was right that I was dumb and did not desearve to go to college because I am not getting any good grades it feels like.  I know I desearve to go to college but this is getting really hard.

I will get better grades I promise myself.

Well I got to go head to a substance abuse workshop by 1 and it is 12:45 but I don't remember what classroom in the library it is.  Well talk to you all later

Samantha Eklund

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